Category Archives: Kundalini / Ayaheusca/ Consciousness


For those lucky enough to be on the edge of, or in the midst of a mental breakdown or psychosis from Ayahuasca, other psychedelics, or living in a human body.

shutterstock_330526412Some thoughts from one who experienced a near-death experience followed by a psychosis-inducing kundalini crisis/brain-damage trauma from taking a plant medicine (Ayahuasca) provided by a “Shaman”:

Noble beings called to greatest service and compassion, you have, perhaps, at your discretion and convenient flowering, been called towards enlightenment and liberation. Liberation from the real illusion of:

  1. Random birth.
  2. Suffering at the hands of unknown parents.
  3. Puberty and spiritual forgetfulness as the ego and sex organs develop the “identity.”
  4. Aging.
  5. Death, again and again…

Perhaps one should note that all of the Western 200-year old labels and diagnoses, such as PTSD, ADD, schizophrenia, psychosis, etc. were created by drug manufacturers and psychologists to sell medicine and real drugs.

In fact, in India and other cultures slightly older than the USA, whose foundation is not progress or selling self-help, yoga or meditation, a mental break is considered by most experienced metaphysical healers, swamis, monastic leaders, etc., as a Divine transformation to be supported in an ashram environment, for it is viewed as a sacred opening.

MantakChiaTao GrandMaster Mantak Chia had some of the most direct answers to my questions about kundalini crises (see the book/research experiment we put out on, FREE on iTunes). Master Chia and an independent scientologist, (the official Scientology organization also saved my life but wasn’t quite as nurturing to the heart)… provided the primary answers I needed after two years of searching with unlimited budget through Asia and India.

Want to protect others by mentioning the name of the “Shaman.” As these fingers type, there is a terror of any link back or future connection to these beings, who also need compassion, and outing. For this traveller, for two years the terror was too great to risk mentioning these monetizers of a sacred plant ceremony, and somehow the knowledge that the “SEEN IS FOR THE SEER” also loomed. (Meaning that this simulation “reality” we live is presenting only what is necessary for us to move one more step towards unity with the Divine. If you are one who has been pushed to the edge, one step may be a many-lifetime hop – so it was somehow beneficial, regardless of the suffering involved. “The seen is for the seer” is a quote from the Divine Sage Patanjali, one of his Yoga sutras worthy of long contemplation.)

However, for the record, the Ayahuasca hosts for this recovering mandala aka my “self” (a mandala being a complete geometric pattern containing all of the uni verse), the host who disconnected, had no responsible guidance prepared, and didn’t react to my need for help, only out of her fear and desire for self-protection, was a Russian lady called Aya, who owns a raw food store called Rainbow Acres in Kauai. Along with Aya were a host of other financial opportunists, (and I, a financial exploiter) whose life reviews will entail our own Divine follow-through.

Definitely seek no vengeance, but fear not, simple fact. With that, let’s be of service to all sentient beings whose path may not be as compressed as ours, but ultimately is the same: lifetimes of unending prison in a body full of experiences that range from hell to heaven, until there is no other choice but to find that place of neutrality between yin and yang and 1 and 0, with the Grace of the Cosmos and the Divine perhaps leading to yours and my dissolution, like a salt doll being dropped into the ocean, or a piece of data-collecting sentience being absorbed into the holographic fractal, and most likely something beyond, far beyond our comprehension, but exactly attuned to our expectation and perceptual bandwidth.

And if that too is surrendered completely, then, like Steve Jobs said in his last breath, “Wow, wow, wow!” (If you wonder why this is not mentioned in his movie, bios or publicly lauded elsewhere, it’s because this is a world of healing for all. To embrace these perceptions above is not part of the cycle which is now called KALI YUGA, a cycle in which liars are kings, etc.) But Kali Yuga is quickly coming to an end, and it’s our job first to enlighten then to serve.

This is humbly offered at your lotus feet, and yours and yours and yours, all the same empty footprints washing away in the sand of one consciousness dreaming all us as characters in an empty illusion – in order to experience itself.




Cave info… & The DMT “spirit molecule” explained

Put in your Skype below and I, the Dolphinology character in your dream, will call you on video if u came here for Master Chia’s cave experience info -…

So forgive the lack of pro coding, but “I” went from hiring a pro marketing guy to wanting to just connect one to one. The DMT post below was put up by our ex-marketing guy and is cute, but not what u get in the DarkRoom experience. What you do get is preparation and healing regarding the one sure thing in life… or whatever this dream is… Which is what life is when it fades, it seems, a dream. How much do u agree?

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“The Spirit Molecule, Dimitri, DynaMyTe, Emerald Dream, Hippy Crack, Magic Dust, call it what you will but Dimethyltryptamine (DMT for short) will blow your fair-trade organic socks off. The drug is essentially a hallucinogen, one that dramatically affects human consciousness and is often compared to other hallucinogens such as LSD.

Of course, where LSD slowly and sensually kisses the mind, taking you on a slow and meandering trip, DMT pretty much bitchslaps you, shooting you out of orbit into another dimension (possibly to be confronted with intelligent otherworldly beings and strange cityscapes).

Three quick facts about DMT:

1: During recreational use, DMT is usually smoked or inhaled, though adhering to South American “Shamanic” practices it is also taken orally.

2: The trip whilst taking DMT is short-lived compared to LSD. Most reports suggest it lasts no more than thirty to forty-five minutes.

3: DMT is not considered to be an addictive substance.

Anyway, with that said, the trip itself isn’t all that makes DMT so interesting, it’s the curious fact scientists don’t really know what DMT’s function is or why DMT is found in us, other mammals and plant life. Indeed, in a popular documentary called The Spirit Molecule a host of academics and writers cover this very topic.

Christian Meuli, MD, “that’s the $64 billion dollar question: why is DMT in our bodies, why is it in plants, all sorts of animals, and what is the role it plays in humans?”

In turn, DMT in plants is described by one academic, Dennis McKenna PhD, as the “language of plants,” he further states “these are what plants use to mediate their relationship with other organisms in the environment.”

For me personally, it was at this point I couldn’t help but see similarities with James Cameron’s motion picture AVATAR. For those aware, James Cameron has asserted an enthusiasm for Lucid Dreaming, and it’s seemingly evident in his work Avatar he is not only exploring the world of dreams, but also the nature of consciousness. In particular during the film we the viewer witness firsthand how the indigenous population of the planet (the Na’vi) connect directly with nature: the Na’vi using their hair to form a direct union to both the animals they master and the tree which is central to their way of life. Again for me this is analogous to DMT, and I can only guess James Cameron had such ideas in mind as he wrote Avatar, drawing inspiration from the idea of DMT – a simple compound found in plentiful supply, our own way of connecting to the melody of the natural world about us.

Back to the documentary and Charles Grob MD adds to the discussion by asking the pertinent question, “why is it that human beings central nervous system is wired to receive this experience? It must be there’s important information to be learned. 

Graham Hancock, writer, “I don’t think DMT is in nature by accident, we’ve co-evolved with these plants. There’s a purpose and meaning to it.”

Finally, Leanna Standish, ND, PhD sums it up beautifully, “So it really fits in to this notion DMT may be a molecular language between all living beings. I can’t think of a more powerful tool to explore the question of what is consciousness.”

I guess the only question remaining is where do you get some?!

Kundalini Acceptance/ Ayaheusca Power/ Happy Bday Master Yogi Dec. 25th

With all humility… To allow the samskaras that are released by the energy travelling up knotted pathways, which cause visions and fears … and just know KNOW that this life or not they will play toward liberation. that the dissolution of this personality is what was asked for during an Ayaheusca overdose, PTSD resulted from the millions of volts that shot through the nervous system which could only handle a few volts, and therefor since NOTHING can be done but to open the channels through non western, Patanjali Yoga and Pranayam over time -that to accept and BREATHE INTO THE HEART – open the heart to allow more and more compassion – this works… it is a lesson in Christ Consciousness which feels like it certainly is focused on compassion. Gregor Mhaele, the “Pranayama” book author guided that with an early Kundalini release, one which the body is not prepared for, all sorts of universal openings are hurled at the energy system and to breath into the heart chakra, to chant bij (seed) mantra of Hraam, in the heart (which even the great masters always return to Gregor says) – this has worked. And the lesson is compassion, not even self judgement called fear, FALSE EVIDENCE APPEARING REAL…FORGIVE ENERGY (that would) ALIGNING REBIRTH!
That is the true takeaway. To be mad is like drinking poison expecting it to hurt another… COMPASSION TO THE SELF is what compassion to others is. See the cosmos in the others eye. Ask the dream monster what it needs. Talk to the kundalini and ask for grace. Christ consciousness saved this life. On this Dec 26th Happy Birthday Master Yogi…